A shaky day back

T5B: 1) My lessons went pretty well. 2) I had time to adjust for the French lessons in the evening at school. 3) I am getting that MRI tomorrow. 4) I have the high score in a game (it's small, I know, but I gotta take what I get!). 5) I got paid today after teaching! :D

basal temp: 36.51

Today started out not so well. Even though I got about 8 hours of sleep yesterday, I once again fell asleep late and woke up really early. This time though, I felt like crying when I opened my eyes. I fought that urge and just tried to calm down and lie quietly until my alarm went off. I was hoping I'd fall back asleep but that's hard to do when you get all worked up. I got ready slowly, unfortunately, but I got everything done and was on time for the bus. The bus ride was surreal. I wanted to read but I don't know what happened. Well, I read scriptures a little and was going to read my book (that I brought especially for that purpose) but instead I zoned out or something. I was shocked to see us pulling up to the school. :/ Oops.

I had two prep periods and I finished prepping and worked a little on my French lessons that I had in the evening. I then went and taught 2.5 for the second time. The only word I can use to describe the whole experience is "wonky." I brought a little chocolate in my purse that I ate before class so I wouldn't get the hunger shakes... ya, that didn't work. I don't know if it was nerves or pain but my hands were SHAKING. That phrase, "shaking like a leaf?" That was my hands. I was shaking so hard I was having a hard time writing and functioning. It was really distressing for me. I tried to press on and act like everything was ok but I just felt OFF. The whole thing felt off. I felt like I was slipping sideways through space and the class was staring at me through a fishbowl or something. DISLIKE. However, I made it through, it was ok, the end. (I teach the same lesson next week. I am anticipating it going much better. I already made some changes and hopefully I'm feeling better by then!)

When I got back to my desk I worked on a little more prep then suddenly I had an email. It was from Bruce telling me what to teach tonight. Uh... you waited ALL WEEKEND just to email me FIVE HOURS before I'm slated to teach AND while I'm at work!? I was dismayed and frustrated. Luckily he included a, "Oops my fault and if you want to do something else, go ahead" clause. Luckily I had prepared some things for a game that ended up being the subject one class is studying so I expanded that lesson and then downloaded Passe-Muraille as one class is doing short stories. I hope it's not too hard for them - great story! (Ironically I'd been thinking about doing that one but thought it might be too hard. Still, Bruce said they're working on short stories and that is a very famous one. So ya... -then I have my history and littérature as back-up).

My next lesson was after lunch. It was a self-introduction. The class is VERY energetic (I found myself shouting over them at times). It went really well though. I heard a girl after class say, "Tanoshikatta." (It was fun.) - And she didn't say it to me, she said it to her friend so YAY! It wasn't even sucking up or anything. :) When I got back to my desk I had a REALLY hard time working. I had a raging migraine that was making me SO ILL. I felt like I was going to puke all over my desk. Every sound, the light streaming through the windows... I'm so sick of being sick. I hope my miracles manifest tomorrow! -- It was very nice how many teachers were concerned though. I was very frank with those who asked me (Hashimoto-s and Kanamori-s). Suzuki-s (male) wished me health then escaped before I could scar him. LOL Not that I would have, but he acted nervous about what I would say to him. I was nice! After a bit, cleaning time rolled around and I helped with that. I was afraid I had missed it at first because I was in the bathroom, but I didn't. The VP talked to me and I understood him! Of course.. he said only two words. But I knew them both. HA! LOL ("Hitori dake" - only one person) It's a victory.

After that I worked on some things at my desk until it was time to go (for some 15 minutes). The whole bus ride home I was trying not to throw up. I was so violently ill, but I won! I had 20 minutes from getting off the bus to get home, eat something, print out Passe-Muraille and get back out the door to my French lessons. Sheesh. Wish I got home sooner. :/ Oh well, I bolted some food and headed back out. I didn't have time to change and so it was a very flashy ride. LOL (I'm wearing my "short" black skirt.) Once again, so grateful for garments!

I got to the building in about 12 minutes (yay for a short bike ride). I arrived 6 minutes early and got set up. I put on some Yves Duteil to set the tone and ... the 1800 girl didn't show up. DOH! It actually ended up being nice. I got to have a little after work/quiet time and got to message Jerod a little bit. Only one of the 4 1900 girls showed up .. and I could have SWORN when I met her she said she had been studying French for 7-8 years. I was afraid what I had prepared would be too easy. NOPE. WAAAAY too hard. Dang it. I had to make up some things on the spot and just didn't feel like I had given her her money's worth. :/ I didn't do it on purpose though. *Sigh* Now I know better for next time! (I couldn't have known she wasn't at that level but I still felt pretty crappy about how it went.) Then the last class. Only 2 of the 4 people showed up, and they said they had heard us singing (we totally sang, yay!), and they wanted to sing as well! They chose the Yves Duteil song (I had two prepared) and we went through the meaning, the pronunciation and then I started up the music. He sings faster than I realized. :/ Oops. However, these two women were SUPER excited and so nice to me about it. I showed them Le Passe-Muraille and they told me they were wanting a break from short stories (I saw they had covered La Fontaine - great stuff). So we chatted a bit (I introduced myself) and we spent the rest of the time on the song and I told them about the history behind it, etc. It was really grand. In fact, they asked me when they would see me next. :D WIN!! I told them I wasn't sure. Then the lady in the office asked when they would see me next! I'm so popular! ;) Also, she asked me if I wanted to teach a 45 minute class every other Wednesday. It's an English class. I asked what ages (worried about flocks of children), and she said adults. She said because it's only 45 minutes it doesn't pay a ton, but I said yes and took it. :) I figured it could be my "fun money." That's why I used to donate plasma (well at one point that was to buy groceries but before and after that I had a time when I used it for movies, snacks, etc). She paid me after all the classes! ($58 - since I was there for 3 hours... that works out to be 19.33 an hour. I'll take it!) I felt really icky on the down times there - teaching helped me ignore my migraine and nausea - but riding home with that money really helped me to feel lighter. I told myself, "Now I've only spent $350 in hospital bills! (less my tithing portion of that $58 of course!)" I feel so blessed to have it. :)

So right now - feeling extremely nauseous (ate some soup when I got home and only threw up a little bit of it! :D), my migraine is still raging, but I am feeling hopeful. Miracles! -Oh also I got a letter today! Tara sent me a movie and some tv shows to watch! YAY!!! Thanks again Tara! I wanted to watch them the second I got home, but I had to work! :) - Oh man if Elder Norawong finds out I have another job, he's gonna be TICKED. But the thing is, I'm not gonna feel this crappy forever. So I am taking this opportunity now and I'll go from there. :) Love you all! XOXO, A

Warning 5 I got last night

Warning 6 - these things were keeping me up!

Sorry hard to see - my hands were so shaky today - if you look out the front window, there is a big green military truck. Three of them drove by us and I was too slow handed and brained to get a better pic, sorry! Still, 0.o

MAIL!!!!! Yeehaw! My second mail from home - and Jerod said he sent me a letter too. :) I can't wait to get it!