World Traveler: Terrible/terrific Tuesday

FIRST, happy birthday Nadia!!!

insect count: 4 - two big dragonflies in the teacher's room, a moth and a flying bug in my place

T5B: 1) I had a REALLY great conversation with Jerod today. 2) I didn't throw up today. 3) My nightmares from last night are finally fading. 4) I made a game for Friday. 5) I have a plan for my lesson next week Wednesday.

basal temp: 36.48

Last night was ROUGH. I kept having vivid nightmares and waking up crying. I had a REALLY hard time getting back to sleep and even wanting to sleep each time I woke up. I woke up an hour before my alarm went off and laid in bed until it sounded. Then I got up and got ready. Getting to school was fine and I was early again. After the meeting, I made a game, as I mentioned above. I have yet to get a picture of all my materials (sorry!). I got some other pics though!

Today I killed a lot of time just reading some stories online. I didn't have anything else to do. Then I thought about asking about my lesson for 2.6 this coming Wednesday. I talked to Saki-s and got the ball rolling there. I also emailed both my parents for help. I helped with cleaning time and then ate my lunch. Today no one told me to leave at 1300 so I stayed until 1400 and then walked out to the main road. It took me about 22 minutes to get to the bus stop and it was hot, but I was glad I got to go home early. :D -- Oh! I forgot to mention. Hashimoto-s and Interac SERIOUSLY stressed me out today. I've told you all about having the 20th off and then going to CS's school festival. Well, MM decided they would pick up that day. Uh... WHAT!? I wanted to cry when they informed me that I would be working that day. At least it wasn't the day before, but I have serious stress over changes. Then I felt like, well so what? I DON'T get a day off and have to work Saturday? Turns out that all the high schools in Morioka are getting together and the teachers are having a sports festival. So I am required to go play sports. Usually that wouldn't be a big deal, but that's going to be around the time of my next period AND I expected that I was going to be getting that day off. It's just really frustrating. On top of THAT, since CS wants me to come in on Saturday, I'm afraid they're going to take my compensatory day off from THEM. But I already am missing a day there. It makes me SO ANGRY and SO FRUSTRATED. I sent a nicely worded email saying I was confused about the schedule change and got a call from the office when I got home. "We'll arrange another day off." Ya... ok. It still makes me want to cry. It feels completely overwhelming. I have to do something out of the ordinary (stressful for me), ride with a teacher to a different school (more stress), with a bunch of new people I don't know (my stomach is killing me), who all speak a different language (it feels like I'm being tortured). ALSO that means that though I typically get home early on Fridays, I'm going to get home super late. :,c It's ALREADY really hard to leave my place at 745 and not get home until between 1730-1800. That's TEN HOURS of my day that I'm at school. I know some of the other teachers stay later, but they also have cars and can go straight home and run their errands. *sigh* I'm still really upset about how this all worked out. As I said though, at least I know ahead of time. :c

When I got home, I ran some errands (went to the bank, paid tithing) and then went home. Luckily I was able to catch Jerod and we had a really good talk. I'm glad that he made that time and was very open and honest with me. I watched the rest of FA (I was on the last couple episodes) and I finished a book I was reading. It still feels as though I got home 5 minutes ago. :/ I have tomorrow off ~ thank goodness. (My chest is still so tight - I'm so nervous about that activity. I REALLY dislike being around large groups of strangers and I'm worried about my ride since they're a smoker. Hopefully they don't smoke in their car. :/) I need to get in bed pretty quick though. I don't want to throw off my sleep cycle and I need to be up early to go to the optometrist. Some days I wonder why I even bother trying to save money! ARGH! Doctors are less expensive here unless you require tests or return visits. It adds up. I'm hoping the eye exam won't be exorbitant. I already have heard the prices of contacts and they SUPER expensive compared to home. :c I want to be able to see though. Ok, sorry. I need to speak with faith. The Lord will help me with any money issues. Oh, also I mentioned that I've been ill to the office and they FREAKED. I told them I would talk to them about it tomorrow since I planned on going in anyway (I have receipts I needed to turn it at the beginning of the month :/). So ... ya today was really great and really awful. I'm hoping for a very relaxing and fruitful day tomorrow. Wishing you a happy Tuesday/Wednesday as well! XOXO, A