World Traveler: A day of REST?

T5B: 1) I had enough money to pay for everything (this was another miracle like the one for my MRI. I had that 2000 yen I mentioned that I made on Wednesday. I paid for my doctor's visit AND my medicine and had .33 left over. I had some change leftover from my groceries and with all that, I was able to pay for everything almost EXACTLY). 2) I made it to the bank. 3) I haven't thrown up (though it feels like "yet" the way my stomach is behaving) today. 4) Yasue and Shinoki went with me to the doctor. 5) I can email the doctor.

basal temp: 36.22

Morning:
- got up to my alarm (first time in WEEKS)
- pulled a big muscle in my back and had a hard time breathing all day
- went to the hospital with Yasue and Shinoki
- met a new doctor who spoke English
- was able to afford everything myself

Notes: The doctor had the bedside manner of an abrasive ice cube! Still, she agreed to let me try a medicine I was thinking might help AND she gave me herbal medicines (read about it here and here - they gave me "25" for daily and "68" for period). So I'm hoping that between the two (pharmaceuticals and natural), relief will be found. At this point, I GIVE UP. She said, "No endometriosis on your MRI. One inch cysts on your left ovary and your right is fine." No endometriosis!? It's like the immaculate conception. I'm miraculously cured ... only why am I in so much pain then!? I don't know what to think, and at this point, I am DESPERATE for any kind of relief. If these three medicines don't work, I don't know what I'll do. :,c I'm glad my oneechan and Shinoki were able to go with me. They helped me at the pharmicist and they kept me company. Also they let me finish my sentences! It seems to be a THING with Japanese doctors. They won't let you finish a sentence! It was REALLY frustrating to be constantly cut off. Still, I hope those medicines help. The REALLY good thing is that I was able to give the doctor my email address and get hers so I don't have to go back for repeat visits. I can email her about how the drugs are working and not miss days from the school. Hopefully this medicine works. :/

Afternoon:
- got home
- went to the bank (so I could pay back Brother Shuwa)
- took a pharmaceutical pill
- laid on the heating pad
- cried

Notes: it took me almost an HOUR to get to the bank and back because I'm in so much pain it's hard to walk. I took a pill when I got home and it helped. It took about 60% of the pain away. Best record yet! --When we were at the hospital, I got left behind because I was walking so slow. But it KILLS to walk at all when I hurt this much so keeping the jarring down to a minimum helps. The bike ride was torture. That's why I walked to the bank when usually I would ride my bike. Some kids were selling something in Sakanacho. I wanted to be interested but I just couldn't summon it.

Evening:
- FINALLY got my SLP
- couldn't figure out what they wanted
- Interac didn't help me much
- cried a whole lot more

Notes: Interac has TOTALLY had my back with this illness. I have REALLY appreciated that. However, when it comes to my SLP, it's like they don't care. I'm repeatedly having to work nights and weekends and they don't pay me for that! They promised we would have our SLPs a week early and they have yet to deliver on that promise. Well, that's not true. CS always sends my SLP early. MM always sends it late. Well here I am at home, FINALLY get my SLP AFTER 1700, and it's in gibberish as far as I'm concerned. I email back. They call me. They call the school. They call me. They send me the pages of the text since I had no idea I would need it. And I'm SCREWED. I tried to let them feel my displeasure but the office doesn't seem to care about this. They tell me, "Please rest." Then when I say, "How am I supposed to do that when I have to work most weekends?" "Oh, ok." NO. NOT OK. I'm feeling SO crappy. It feels like no one is HEARING me. Limor said I could talk to her anytime (since she's always calling me and telling me the negative things going on in her life.) Well, I messaged her and I got a, "Well, chin up." Essentially. Thanks. I'm completely and thoroughly disheartened. I'm feeling completely abandoned and I still have to make a worksheet for Monday. I'm LIVID and depressed. And I REALLY don't like feeling like this. I can barely motivate myself to get out of bed to get a tissue to blow my nose (and I've needed them from all the sobbing) and I'm supposed to make a worksheet and hopefully clean my apartment. It's disgusting - I've been working or in pain or entertaining people the past couple weekends and my place is filthy. :,c

I hope I can sleep. Hope you're all doing well. XOXO, A

One more thing: This has been weighing heavily on my mind and I don't know what to do about it. Please pray for Teresa. She's not doing well. The doctors have begun to date her and I have been praying for her, but as I said in this post, I'm not feeling "heard" lately. So please add your prayers to mine. -- She wants to give up because of all the pain she's been in for so long. I don't know what to say to her. I've been in pain everyday for only two months and man >I< want to give up. :,/

My sleep

RS a while ago - this was sent to me by Shinoki-shimai today (From back left: Yasue, me, Gas-s, Johnson-s (she's since been transferred), Hyoudo-s, Hoshino-s, front from left: ?, ?, Seiko-s, Fumie-s)