World Traveler: LOOOOONG day

Insect count: one big spider but luckily it was at the bus stop and not my place - it startled me but I survived!

T5B: 1) This week is almost over. 2) I made it through today. 3) I got a lot done in spite of apathy and pain. 4) I got my work done at home relatively quickly. 5) I had some dark chocolate at my place.

basal temp: 36.48 (0.o Here I was thinking "That's more like it! I'm getting back to normal - but nooooo.)

I forgot to mention that yesterday while I was at work I found out I had cut my other thumb as well. The little flap of skin kept catching on everything so I pulled out my clippers and took it off. For some reason my thumb took that as permission to bleed. So I got a bandaid from a teacher to wear until the bleeding stopped. My students kept laughing at me. That's ok.

Today started with what I said above ^ - me thinking I was back on track. I got ready, went to school, and had a small surprise. Cleaning time in the morning! So I helped the students and then got to work. I blasted through 3 worksheets and made 1/2 a powerpoint in 2-2.5 hours. Then apathy set in. I was tired and frustrated and wanted to stop working. Unfortunately the 3 worksheets I had made were for next week and I still needed the three for tomorrow. (I was planning on getting EVERYTHING done and those were already sketched out so I made them first.) I was pretty frustrated how shaky I was and how frustrated and apathetic I was feeling. I wanted to yell, "Screw you all!" and then go home and sleep for a week. I was pretty freaked out at my emotions and thinking, "I'm going to have to flog myself to finish again." I escaped to the bathroom to use it and also to sit quietly, alone for a few minutes. It helped me recharge a little and I made a discovery. My period started. Well that explains the emotion - I can't say pain since I have had cramps EVERY SINGLE DAY save one since July 28th. I can be grateful, and am, however that I did not have any emotional outbursts BEFORE it started. That's what I usually experience. (Emotional outbursts and general hormonalness the week before and then abject misery because of the huge amounts of pain during the week of.) Kanamori-s gave me laugh though. Before I went to the bathroom she caught me at the desk and sold me an advance ticket for a tea ceremony (I'm glad she dropped by or I wouldn't have known to bring money to the school festival). She told me, "Please come in the morning. We ordered many sweets but I am afraid the sweets will be out of order in the afternoon." LOL I know what she meant, and I kept a straight face when she said it, but yay for Engrish. Just a funny mental picture.

After I went back to my desk, I banged out two more worksheets and a plan for my elementary school kids (I'm as excited as my period will allow for tomorrow). I also found the materials I would need and then my laptop battery died. I then was frustrated for another reason. I had blocked out my worksheets ahead of time (including dialogues and sentences) so I could get everything done before the battery died but no such luck. So there I was at school with 2 hours to kill, work I needed to finish, and the prospect of having to work when I got home. I already needed to do dishes and it was just overwhelming to think I had to work as well. But it was what it was. Then we had a second cleaning time, I bugged a couple teachers to get my SLP as I STILL didn't have it for next week. I have a couple lessons on Monday for which I'm not ready due to change of plans, but I will work on them tomorrow. I also need to finish my powerpoint for 5th period tomorrow but seeing as I am only teaching 1st and 3rd before that, I will make it on the breaks. (Oh sheesh - during the day Tsukasa sent me the wrong SLP and I started to PANIC. I was being given 7 new lessons for Tuesday which confused me and then I realized it wasn't my school and sure enough, "Sorry! Disregard that SLP!" Yeesh.) Oh and one other update: remember how I had my trash privileges revoked before? Well I was given a trash can of my own and was so excited but today Nakata-s (who sits a desk away from me) took my trash away! Well, she grabbed it and put it RIGHT by her. So she had one on either side of her. ... I'm assuming she forgot she had one on the other side of her, lol. Can you imagine being so selfish about trash cans? LOL In any case, I have to get up to reach it. Oh well. One other piece of "news." I sneezed and coughed at the same time and Kanamori-s came over to my desk, "Are you ok!?" LOL She's a very sweet lady. I assured her I was.

The bus ride home was stressful and discouraging. The traffic was very slow and I got home 20 minutes later than I usually do. But I told myself again, "It is what it is" and turned on my MP3 player and walked home. At home I kept the player with me and washed dishes as quickly as possible and then got to my work. I was pretty hungry but I knew if I sat down with my dinner first I would talk myself out of finishing my work and my lesson tomorrow wouldn't go as well. (I tried to talk myself out of it anyway, but then flogged myself forward and just did it.) I was happy to finish and quickly made some dinner. As I said above, I'm not completely done, but everything that needed to be printed was so YAY. The lesson could be better, but I just don't have the energy or willpower to pour into it. It's not bad, but it's not the breakfast of champions I usually bring to class. :/ After that I watched an episode of Madoka as I ate dinner and then now I am writing this. I hope you all have a less stressful Thursday. I been spending the rest of the night in tears over various things. :/ Hopefully my cramps go away! Love you all! XOXO, Ann