A day of disappointments

T5B: 1) Even though Jerod and I had a rough day, we worked it out and it ended well. 2) I will have time to do more origami tomorrow. 3) Fumie brought by a futon and she GAVE it to me (0.o) - it's SO nice! Already I feel much better and that's just sitting on it. 4) I have only one more first grade (sophomore) class to finish. :) 5) I got my grocery shopping done today.

basal temp: 35.99

Morning:
- I didn't sleep well again - my percentage is back in the 70s
- showered
- messaged Jerod

Notes: I was so tired I couldn't motivate myself to do much. :/

Afternoon:
- my HT came by and he's going to let a coworker of mine (male) stay at his place for a few days (YAY! So he'll be in an appropriate place)
- a man who works for the apartment building (I think) came by and installed a smoke detector
- I went grocery shopping
- read a little bit
- found out my New Year's Eve plans are cancelled (cried a WHOLE lot)

Notes: The rough patch I mentioned with Jerod was my own fault. A coworker, who is male, asked to stay at my place. I was thinking, "Yay! I can be a missionary and give him a positive experience with church members!" Of course Jerod FREAKED, and understandably so. He was right - what the heck was I doing letting a guy stay over with just me here (the Shawn thing was an accident as I expected the McDonalds to be here when he said he was coming - actually HE moved up the time .. anyway). So I got back to this guy and said, "Sorry, I made a mistake." I felt really badly about breaking my word and asked around the ward for help. My HT (Shiwa-kyoudai) came to the rescue and said this guy could stay there. I'm REALLY glad he has somewhere to stay. Jerod is REALLY worried about my ability to make good decisions. :/ I just didn't think it through properly. (In my defense I've had VERY little sleep and I really DID want to do some missionary work.) In any case, I've been feeling like a failure. I was told I would get a chance to share the gospel by coming to Japan and I just haven't. Not that I can see. It makes me feel like I've wasted my time or disappointed my Father in Heaven. I jumped at this chance because I thought this was it, but as I said, Jerod was right. I made a stupid decision and thanks to ward members I was able to keep my word that this guy would have a place to stay. (He's taking the driving test to get his Japanese DL - I've heard it's rigorous and extrememly expensive so he needed somewhere to stay because his money is going to the state and not a hotel room. - Maybe I misunderstood. But ya...) -- THEN New Year's Eve. As you know, I was supposed to spend it with a Japanese family. They told me they would dress me in a kimono, we would go to a shrine, we would visit an onsen and eat traditional New Year's Japanese food (which is exquisitely beautiful and looks delicious - I've seen pictures). Now THAT was exciting. The best part for me was that the mom said she would let me help her prepare all the food. I was SO excited to learn how to make Japanese food. Only I contacted the family about going over tomorrow and their daughter is SUPER ill so no go. They invited me on the 9th of November. I've been looking forward to this for two months. I've bragged to everyone I know. And those plans were my only winter break plans (other than lots of origami and rest but I've been sucking at the rest bit). It was quite the blow to learn my plans were cancelled. I cried and cried and cried. :/ Oh well. More time for origami, eh?

Evening:
- Fumie stopped by with a futon
- I spilled my dinner everywhere :/
- I did some more origami
- watched some Sherlock
- got to message Jerod some more and we worked everything out

Notes: I hope you all have a very fun New Year's. I will be wildly jealous from my place. Maybe the bragging is what did me in? :/ In any case, hope you all had a lovely Sabbath (Jerod did and shared with me and I'm grateful for him sharing his spiritual experiences with me). My love to you all, XOXO, A

P.S. I think I forgot to update you about dinner with my doctor. She never got back to me, so I emailed her on Christmas day and said, "Missed you last night." She answered something like, "No, we have dinner tomorrow: Tuesday." (The next day was Thursday.) Me: Tuesday: 火曜日. She apologized profusely and we rescheduled for the 4th. For reason I said Tuesday. I checked the calendar today and it's a Saturday. DOH! So I wrote back and apologized and said I was still free and I would see her then.

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